Better being burned out than bored

Hi,

I am Aman, and this safe space is where I am most raw with my thoughts, hop on if you'd like to interact with them :))

Correction

Burnout is not as bad as it sounds, all this time I had it all wrong.

Burning out doing something insignificant which you were never mean't to do surely is a miserable outcome, but not if you are trying to create something that never existed before.

Creating new economies is a difficult as well as interesting problem statement, to think that it is free of burnout might be true for some lucky ones having attained obsessive curiosity but in reality most of us fail to do that.

Having realised this, I think there are few corrections I need to make to my current set of mental models.

Javascript doesn't make me curious anymore

Even though I am a computer science undergrad, learning computer science took me more than 4 years, It's mind boggling how good the computer science syllabus taught in Indian colleges are and how equally bad the teachers are.

Javascript was the first programming language I could learn, with a loose discipline.

• Barrier to creating things is very low in javascript, almost every single thing has an npm package (looking at you a here, leftpad!)

• Dynamic language with no types, which takes most of the cognitive load from us, making us less sure about what our functions will return

• Functional programming - Closures and lexical scopes are not even necessary to understand to ship your first startup mvp

Don't get me wrong here, all this great, I personally love the fact that javascript enables a whole bunch of people from different disciplines to contribute to the web but this is not what I want to talk about.

Chasing the ecosystem

Low barrier to entry makes it very difficult in javascript ecosystem to differentiate yourself, the large influx of developer contributions in the ecosystem gets very difficult to track,

I have been chasing the react ecosystem for quite sometime now, react being the strongest set of tools in my arsenal allowed me to call myself an engineer but

Learning about react doesn't make me curious anymore, I feel this obligation that I need to be up to date with the industry in order to be relevant.

Selfish Learning

I have learned this the hard way, that I need to be more selfish with what I learn, building things makes me curious, learning about tools(computers) that help me create something cool also makes me curious.

The operating principle

I personally think, the more you talk about a raw idea that has just taken shape in your head the more you get to know yourself better,

Creating something that I/people can interact with gives me the most joy, now there may be different ways in which we can create, sometimes starting a company is usually the best approach,

I like the idea of creating new economies from scratch, it is almost a primer on how behavioural psychology for a certain group of individuals work

Here's a list of operating principles that I am going to try to follow for the rest of the year,

• Implementation > Understanding

I need to have a strong bias for action, no matter how difficult. the problem statement/implementation is,

diving head first into the problem instead of theorising about if it makes the most sense, it's like a litmus test of curiosity

• All In or All Out

I don't want to live a comforting life in my 20s that binds me towards conformity, focusing serially on things that I find interesting is the only thing that makes sense me now

• Weekend is an illusion

I have been convincing myself that the weekend is the ultimate time window,

weekend is the grandest illusions of all time, convincing yourself that the future you will want to do something that doesn't necessarily embark curiosity, is the most grandest lie you can tell yourself

• Being burned out rather than bored

I only want to optimise for fun, the kind that keeps me uncomfortable and requires a great deal of focus from my end, it is much much better to be burned out trying to do something grander than yourself rather than being bored living a confirmist live slowly loosing on curiosity

Conclusion

That's it I guess, would love if anyone interacting reaching with these would be up for a technical discussion, you can reach out to me at amantulsyan35@gmail.com